Veganism and Phobias

I came across a dilemma last night. Well not a dilemma, but part of me was wishing I was ignorant like everyone else so I would be able to kill creepy crawlies without affecting any rights or ethics in my eyes. As it is, my ethics and the born given right of insects not to be killed for no reason stops me from killing them, despite my extreme phobia of certain kinds of them (including arachnids).

Last night 3-4 daddy long legs decided to reside in the hall and my room:

Not to be confused with the arachnid 'daddy long legs' which I am so glad do not reside in the UK because those things would really freak me out. The spiders we currently have are scary enough as it is.

I know they got in through the windows my father left open ¬_¬ because I've been keeping the windows shut due to fostering cats.

Any who, me and my extreme wimpishness when it comes to these flying insects ended up with me screaming every time one came at me and I ended up sleeping in my father's room (he was at his g/f's at the time).

Anyhow, long story short, sometimes I wish I wasn't vegan so I could get rid of my fear without consequence to my ethics...I know it sounds bad, but I'm losing my mind with this phobia. Especially when climate change has forced these insects to be more frequent yearly instead of only 2 times a year that they used to be known for.

I know it's bad of me to think like this but well, I don't know. Even trying to catch them humanely gets my heart beating faster the nearer I get to them and I end up just messing up and they get away.